Thursday, September 23, 2010

verse one

time seems to slip through my fingers like the sands of the earth.

memories flow away like a strong undercurrent

playing my guitar, thoughts of you fade into night

like ashes of the fire they fade into dark

times when i would play for you, times when i would sing for you

back when the night was young, back when the tide was high

back in the dawns before today, back when we where in love

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

the flipside

silent tears flow down my face as i think of you, the girl iv loved more than anyother, more than myself or this life. the one id do anything to make happy, no matter what it did to me, how much it tore me. i remembered when we would stay up all night, promising eachother how we would always be there for eachother, promising we would always love eachother, the promises that have left nothing but these silent tears streaming down my face. now that iv gone numb to everything but this dull knife twisting into my core, all i hear is the silence of the vacuum in my empty heart, all i can feel is the flames engulfing all my passion and my love, and all i smell are the ashes left behind. but how could you know any of this, not how broken i am, down to my heart and soul, shattered like a glass heart. im cold... im so cold here now without your warmth so empty without your light filling me, and so hollow without your smile infront of me.

you and i

Stars fell from the night sky the moment i saw you. the first words i said to you made you smile, made me laugh. when we danced your smile stole my heart, and your eyes gave me yours. as we talked i fell in love and you adored. i searched my heart and found i wanted you, you found you wanted me over him. one day i told you goodnight and you said you where falling for me, i couldnt sleep, couldnt think. i told you my secrets you told me yours, i said i loved you you said "i love you too" noone could be as happy as me and you, how we felt, how we loved eachother, you and i

the sinner

iv sinned against myself
i told myself i wouldnt love
told myself i wouldnt cherish
told myself i couldnt need
iv sinned.
the pain she drove through my heart
the like the slow suffocation of drowning
left me alone in a hollow, deathly cold room
with walls made of mirror, forcing me to see
to see my flaws and imperfections crystal clear.
to let my shame burn me away, leave me broken and forsaken.
made a promise to myself that i wouldnt love till i let my glass heart mend.
then i sinned
i saw you
you took me in your heart and made me smile
took all my pain and suffering away, and made me whole.
i loved you, you where my pure spirit of love, my complete dream.
i wanted you, cherished you, held you above everything else i held dear.
nothing could compare to my love for you, our hearts where stuck to eachothers
your smile made me laugh, and your frown made me cry.
every thought of my existence went to you, every dream in my soul centered around you.
we made a mistake.
you where torn from me, ripped apart from my soul
a hole remained where you where in my heart, and my soul leaked out on the earth
as the life dripped poured from my soul, i watched a lily grow from the ground
a beautiful memory of you, that i would cherish, cherish until the devil of the night
he came, he shredded my lily, and thrashed my memorys of you, and i finally died
fading into this life it broke me that you where gone.
all be cause i sinned
all because im a sinner
its a sin for me to love
but all i can do is love you
so ill be punished for my sins
for im a sinner.

more experiments

baby, im not gonna lie, i want you
im not gonna look anymore now that iv found you
baby, you mean the world to me, so im not gonna act anymore
imma be me if you let me be with you

eternal, graceful, the flow of your body as we dance, its majestic
baby girl, never leave my arms, im gonna keep you safe from this world
im gonna promise you that ill be everything you need me to be
baby, imma be me, if you let me be with you

lights out baby, we are gonna play under the stars tonight
im gonna make this, our one night together, a night to remember
laying my heart bare, im gonna be honest with you, ill promise you always
im gonna be me, if you let me be with you.

this roller coaster called love we are gonna try tonight
we are young, free, wild and hopeful, holding hands
kissing your candy lips, baby im going to hold you tight tonight
imma be me, if you let me be with you

there is just something about that sugar acid smile of yours
just something about your clear sky ice yes
something about the poisonous way you say my name
baby, be your deadly self, so i can be poisoned by you

kill me slowly with your venom kiss
light my soul on fire with your touch
suffocate me with your silent breath
baby, kill me, so i can love you

PARTY(experimented with this one)

hey there girl, didnt ya know
im having a party tonight
a party im throwing just for you
in throwing a party and your the only one invited

hey girl. what do ya think?
imma come and get you in the dead of night
your parents wont know, so wont you come?
come to this party for just you and me

hey girl, first place we're gonna go
gonna go dance in the graveyard
twirl around the headstones, glide through the graves
at this party just for you and me

hey girl, have you heard? next on the list
we are going to the river, tonight we are gonna swim
splash, giggle, and slide through the chilly water
at the party just for you and me

oh girl, you we cant have you getting sick
i know where we can dry off, lets take a short drive
over to a trampoline in the middle of nowhere
this party is just for you and me

hey girl, iv got some pillows and a blanket in the car
lets lay here together and share our warmth
lets smile and hold hands under the stars
this is just for you and me

hey girl, i see you blushing, dont be shy
when i tell you your beautiful im not like the others
im not going to lie, or cheat on you
your beautiful, at this party for me and you

lifeless

In every star shines a light pretty enough to make the moon average, in your eyes there is a light bright enough to make the stars jealous. a smile to make every garden of the world seem bland. your beauty and radiance seems to over flow and break through into the world around you, making everything seem brighter. how perfect is that? a wonderful girl with such a magnificent gaze. a love one can never shake nor ever escape. the song in your voice silences the birds and the wolves howel at your passing, the butterflys swarm and even the trees move to shade you. everything about you seems so unreal, yet when i see you its like im looking through glass. a perfect mirror of what true beauty is ment to look like. if we are made in gods image than the angels are made in your image, the light in every creature seems to fade in the radiance of your spirit.