verse one

time seems to slip through my fingers like the sands of the earth.

memories flow away like a strong undercurrent

playing my guitar, thoughts of you fade into night

like ashes of the fire they fade into dark

times when i would play for you, times when i would sing for you

back when the night was young, back when the tide was high

back in the dawns before today, back when we where in love

the flipside

silent tears flow down my face as i think of you, the girl iv loved more than anyother, more than myself or this life. the one id do anything to make happy, no matter what it did to me, how much it tore me. i remembered when we would stay up all night, promising eachother how we would always be there for eachother, promising we would always love eachother, the promises that have left nothing but these silent tears streaming down my face. now that iv gone numb to everything but this dull knife twisting into my core, all i hear is the silence of the vacuum in my empty heart, all i can feel is the flames engulfing all my passion and my love, and all i smell are the ashes left behind. but how could you know any of this, not how broken i am, down to my heart and soul, shattered like a glass heart. im cold... im so cold here now without your warmth so empty without your light filling me, and so hollow without your smile infront of me.

you and i

Stars fell from the night sky the moment i saw you. the first words i said to you made you smile, made me laugh. when we danced your smile stole my heart, and your eyes gave me yours. as we talked i fell in love and you adored. i searched my heart and found i wanted you, you found you wanted me over him. one day i told you goodnight and you said you where falling for me, i couldnt sleep, couldnt think. i told you my secrets you told me yours, i said i loved you you said "i love you too" noone could be as happy as me and you, how we felt, how we loved eachother, you and i

the sinner

iv sinned against myself
i told myself i wouldnt love
told myself i wouldnt cherish
told myself i couldnt need
iv sinned.
the pain she drove through my heart
the like the slow suffocation of drowning
left me alone in a hollow, deathly cold room
with walls made of mirror, forcing me to see
to see my flaws and imperfections crystal clear.
to let my shame burn me away, leave me broken and forsaken.
made a promise to myself that i wouldnt love till i let my glass heart mend.
then i sinned
i saw you
you took me in your heart and made me smile
took all my pain and suffering away, and made me whole.
i loved you, you where my pure spirit of love, my complete dream.
i wanted you, cherished you, held you above everything else i held dear.
nothing could compare to my love for you, our hearts where stuck to eachothers
your smile made me laugh, and your frown made me cry.
every thought of my existence went to you, every dream in my soul centered around you.
we made a mistake.
you where torn from me, ripped apart from my soul
a hole remained where you where in my heart, and my soul leaked out on the earth
as the life dripped poured from my soul, i watched a lily grow from the ground
a beautiful memory of you, that i would cherish, cherish until the devil of the night
he came, he shredded my lily, and thrashed my memorys of you, and i finally died
fading into this life it broke me that you where gone.
all be cause i sinned
all because im a sinner
its a sin for me to love
but all i can do is love you
so ill be punished for my sins
for im a sinner.

more experiments

baby, im not gonna lie, i want you
im not gonna look anymore now that iv found you
baby, you mean the world to me, so im not gonna act anymore
imma be me if you let me be with you

eternal, graceful, the flow of your body as we dance, its majestic
baby girl, never leave my arms, im gonna keep you safe from this world
im gonna promise you that ill be everything you need me to be
baby, imma be me, if you let me be with you

lights out baby, we are gonna play under the stars tonight
im gonna make this, our one night together, a night to remember
laying my heart bare, im gonna be honest with you, ill promise you always
im gonna be me, if you let me be with you.

this roller coaster called love we are gonna try tonight
we are young, free, wild and hopeful, holding hands
kissing your candy lips, baby im going to hold you tight tonight
imma be me, if you let me be with you

there is just something about that sugar acid smile of yours
just something about your clear sky ice yes
something about the poisonous way you say my name
baby, be your deadly self, so i can be poisoned by you

kill me slowly with your venom kiss
light my soul on fire with your touch
suffocate me with your silent breath
baby, kill me, so i can love you

PARTY(experimented with this one)

hey there girl, didnt ya know
im having a party tonight
a party im throwing just for you
in throwing a party and your the only one invited

hey girl. what do ya think?
imma come and get you in the dead of night
your parents wont know, so wont you come?
come to this party for just you and me

hey girl, first place we're gonna go
gonna go dance in the graveyard
twirl around the headstones, glide through the graves
at this party just for you and me

hey girl, have you heard? next on the list
we are going to the river, tonight we are gonna swim
splash, giggle, and slide through the chilly water
at the party just for you and me

oh girl, you we cant have you getting sick
i know where we can dry off, lets take a short drive
over to a trampoline in the middle of nowhere
this party is just for you and me

hey girl, iv got some pillows and a blanket in the car
lets lay here together and share our warmth
lets smile and hold hands under the stars
this is just for you and me

hey girl, i see you blushing, dont be shy
when i tell you your beautiful im not like the others
im not going to lie, or cheat on you
your beautiful, at this party for me and you

lifeless

In every star shines a light pretty enough to make the moon average, in your eyes there is a light bright enough to make the stars jealous. a smile to make every garden of the world seem bland. your beauty and radiance seems to over flow and break through into the world around you, making everything seem brighter. how perfect is that? a wonderful girl with such a magnificent gaze. a love one can never shake nor ever escape. the song in your voice silences the birds and the wolves howel at your passing, the butterflys swarm and even the trees move to shade you. everything about you seems so unreal, yet when i see you its like im looking through glass. a perfect mirror of what true beauty is ment to look like. if we are made in gods image than the angels are made in your image, the light in every creature seems to fade in the radiance of your spirit.

depths of sorrow

i stand alone in a field of broken dreams, a space full of empty souls and shattered glass hearts, watching as everything good slowly drips out lifes veins, i can hear its breath fade into silence, feel the warmth fade to frost, can smell the roses as they rot, and taste the ashes in its mouth. alone on this summer nights eve i watched as the pain withered you away into nothing, i watched as you faded from this world, alone, in the valley of silence.

shorty

so iv been lazy and havnt posted anything on this in forever, so i think its about time i did... i wonder how many people even read these...

fields if flowers, the night sky full of stars, and a garden of roses all sit in awe of your beauty, birds sing their jealousy of how high your spirits soar, how high they can lift me. the sun resides in your eyes, making them shine with beauty. nothing in this world is like you, everything is gray when i look at you, your smile, your smile when im dancing with you, sends all my pain and sadness below, below that place you take me, that place high in the stars where we are alone, what a dream this is.

anger

anger is a strong thing, we can take alot, especially me, but at some point it all breaks out, whether something small and stupid or completely infuriating, something will tip it over and all the anger will spill out. i did get pretty angry today, this is what i wrote on a whim, no thought behind it at all.

All i can feel is this rage, this hate. boiling, burning, blazing out of control. ripping you to shreds, stabbing you with my words of never ending hate till you realize just what youve let loose.
when will you learn?
when you hear?
then are you going to figure it out?
that i hate you
you just cant keep up with me, you wanna start something, you wanna play this game? fine, lets go, youd better prepare to hit the floor, cuz youve got no chance, your going down.
when will you learn?
when you hear?
then are you going to figure it out?
that i hate you
how does the floor feel? how does my fist taste? how much more blood do you think you can loose? iv lost control and nothing can phase me, this is what you get when you mess with someone bigger than you, better be prepared to face me, cuz i already told you, i hate you
i hate you
i hate you

so i was randomly thinking around and i came up with this, actually another friend of mine was pissed and i wrote this up to make her smile... in the end it worked :D


i know a girl
her smile is like the sun
her eyes like the depths of the ocean
her hair like midnight
her mind more beautiful than a rose
her figure more graceful than a swan
and her heart more passionate than a volcano
and i love this girl
shes amazing
and makes me smile like no other
shes everything iv wanted
and my other half
my shining star, my burning flame, my beautiful rose, lovely girl, radiant persona, the aphrodite of my soul, and perfection of my heart
i love everything about you, your beautiful mind, your wonderful heart and your perfect smile
i love you more than the moon loves the ocean

stars

So i havnt posted anything in awhile... lol iv been lazy, sorry about that.
anyways, i wrote this not to long ago.

In every star shines a light pretty enough to make the moon average, in your eyes there is a light bright enough to make the stars jealous. a smile to make every garden of the world seem bland. your beauty and radiance seems to over flow and break through into the world around you, making everything seem brighter. how perfect is that? a wonderful girl with such a magnificent gaze. a love one can never shake nor ever escape. the song in your voice silences the birds and the wolves howel at your passing, the butterflys swarm and even the trees move to shade you. everything about you seems so unreal, yet when i see you its like im looking through glass. a perfect mirror of what true beauty is ment to look like. if we are made in gods image than the angels are made in your image, the light in every creature seems to fade in the radiance of your spirit.

Tonight

So yea, i love the night sky, its really beautiful. the black sheet with thousands of sparkeling lights all over it is amazing :)

Tonight i will tell you under the stars that i love you. under the stars ill tell you ill always be here for you. tonight we will look at the stars together where we first met, where i first held you. tonight the stars are beautiful, just like your eyes, your eyes that shine with so much life what i drown in them, pulled into the abyss of your eyes. the strings of my heart are pulled by everything you say to me, i hang on every word that you say to me. i cant stop thinking of you, your always on my mind, always in my heart. im addicted to you, your like a drug to me, i cant live without you. but tonight we share our love for the stars and for eachother.

Repitition

So when someone repeats something over to you, do you take it as emphisis? or as someone just being obnoxious? lol it depends on the subjest i guess. i wonder if my songs seem repitious?

My heart goes to you my dear love, my sweet girl, my deepest desire.
Forever i want to make you happy. Forever i want to see your smile. Forever i want to hold your hand in mine.
Tonight i will ask you to dance. Tonight i will drown in your beautiful eyes. Tonight i will kiss you under the stars.
Beautiful girl we will always be together. Beautiful girl nothing could ever get between us. Beautiful girl i love you.

Roses are red

So i really like some flowers, i think lilys the most, but roses are more recognised as a symbol of beauty i believe, anyway someone i know actually took this song and made her own version of it, which i like very much :), maybe if i get her permission ill get it on here, she said she is putting it in a book she is writing lol, i dont think i have the patience for a whole book O_o would take too long lol, andways here ya go.

Your so beautiful girl, more beautiful than a rose, you dont have to try, you dont have to worry, you are so much like a rose. every other flower needs to be with something else to be pretty, but not you, no beautiful girl just like a rose you need nothing, you radiate such a natural beauty its stunning, and even alone your more beautiful than any other flower in a garden. oh girl your such a beautiful rose, you shine so bright and the moon itself is in awe of your beauty, beautiful gurl, noone is like you, noone is close, oh how i love you.

and here is the version that someone else made :)

You’re a beautiful girl
Beyond the beauty of a rose
Others need to have an accessory
You’re a natural beauty

You’re so beautiful girl
Bright, so vibrant just like a rose
So stunning that the moon is in such awe
At how you shine with no flaw

Oh you’re beautiful girl
Dangerous, like thorns on a rose
Vivid scarlet petals shows your passion,
Intensity, your devotion

You’re my beautiful rose
No one else can match to my rose
Nor beat it – it’s what only you can do
Girl, my rose how I love you

Couples

So tell me, If your with someone do you share EVERYTHING with them? i mean more than a seat or a drink, like to you want to share your all? your feelings, dreams, terrors, emotions, and maybe eventually your life?

tell me everything you are, tell me everything you want, tell me what your heart tells you. show me im not alone in this story. this story in my heart that youve started. promis you will help me finish what youve started. stay with me till the end, let me hold your hand through the end, your my guiding light, youve shown me the way i want to go. your beautiful dark eyes so clear and so bright make me want to be everything to you. so share with me everything that you are. share with me everything you will be. share yout life with mine. hold my hand till the end of time, share your life with mine.

Addictions

So i think that everyone has some sort of addication, mine seems to be writing about love.

Tonight i will tell you under the stars that i love you. under the stars ill tell you ill always be here for you. tonight we will look at the stars together where we first met, where i first held you. tonight the stars are beautiful, just like your eyes, your eyes that shine with so much life what i drown in them, pulled into the abyss of your eyes. the strings of my heart are pulled by everything you say to me, i hang on every word that you say to me. i cant stop thinking of you, your always on my mind, always in my heart. im addicted to you, your like a drug to me, i cant live without you. but tonight we share our love for the stars and for eachother.

At 6am...

In the early morning when everyone is still asleep, and i hant even closed my eyes for the night, i end up writing a song, here is what it turns out to be

if i could ask for just one thing, have just one wish it would be to hold you in my arms tonight, to stare into your eyes, eyes brighter than a thousand stars. oh girl, im so desperate to see you, to hold, so wanting to hear your voice singing and filling the air with its sweet melody. im so tired of being all alone, iv become so desperate for your embrace, to hear you say i love you. iv cried so long, and im on my knees begging for your love, all alone i dont think i could make it thru this world. i know we havnt known eachother long at all but i know i love you and i want to be with you i wouldnt care the distance or the wait, my dream is to hold you in my arms. oh beautiful qirl i swear i would wait for you to go thru every guy in the world to let you see that you belong with me, id give you everything that i am, my heart on a string, but i dont want to miss anything. every breath i take i fall even more in love with you, every conversation steals my breath away, i love you so much

Dreams

So how much do you dream? personally i dont dream much :(, but when i do i have amazing ones, and i only wish they would go on longer lol. if found that some people put alot of meaning behind their dreams, hence things like dream reading and interpertations. idk how much truth their is behind any of that, but oh well. dreams are something we should all have in my opinion.

This dream i have, this visions i see, they all show me this girl, this beautiful girl standing under the moon. her hair dark as midnight and her skin like snow, lips red as blood. standing against the moonlight its such beautiful sight, the stars cry at her beauty, and the very moon is shamed by the light in her eyes. her lithe form fills my eyes and i cant stop watching her. shes dressed in a black gown so dark the night sky seems bright. when i reached you i saw gentle tears fill your eyes and watched as they rolled down your porcelain skin. in my dream as i reached out to touch you, your hand raised and you wiped a tear away, as i touched you your figure faded away and turned to mist, and a flock of black doves flew from where you where, then dream ended and i know that i love you

It's afternoon here

ok, here is kind of a newer one, its only a month or two old, actually i wrote it at work to prove to my manager that i can write lol, anyways, here ya go.

Breaking Through the night, thru that time of silent shadows. traveling back to a place i belong, a place i know is warmer than the sun on a midsummer day. back to your arms, arms that are wide open, open and inviting. your eyes bright and beautiful, full of joy and warmth, your lips full and red, parting your beautiful face in a perfect smile, dressed in a gown as pure white as a flawless swan. the moon paled next to your beauty, and everything grows magical at your coming, your love giving the world life, your smile giving me life. this wonderful breaking of night will be our secret, our passion, the begenning of our love.

Ok, wth is wrong with people

So... how can someone be there for a sibling their whole life, even threw some pretty rough stuff, the all of a sudden turn into a total idiot and basically say "dont talk to me ever again" over a few stupid things that you have NO control of, whatsoever? i mean seriouly, isnt that a little immature? i dont know >.< but people are stupid. Anyways, i wrote this earlier to cheer a friend up, she says i write extremly well.

In every star shines a light pretty enough to make the moon average, in your eyes there is a light bright enough to make the stars jealous. a smile to make every garden of the world seem bland. your beauty and radiance seems to over flow and break through into the world around you, making everything seem brighter. how perfect is that? a wonderful girl with such a magnificent gaze. a love one can
never shake nor ever escape. the song in your voice silences the birds and the wolves howel at your passing, the butterflys swarm and even the trees move to shade you. everything about you seems so unreal, yet when i see you its like im looking through glass. a perfect mirror of what true beauty is ment to look like. if we are made in gods image than the angels are made in your image, the light in every creature seems to fade in the radiance of your spirit.

An actual song... someone asked for it

Ok, for day two im going to post another of my older songs, this one a friend asked me to write for them, lol they she said she liked it, but this is one of the few with actual verses, enjoy :D.

I sit watching the stars thinking of the night when we first met, thinking of that magical night where i held you under the stars for what seemed eternity. i remembered the moment when you whispered that you loved me i swear i would have flown away with you.
I swear iv loved you
Ill swear to always love you
No matter what the cost
Would you love me to?
Now we live so far apart, oh so far apart, and i cant stop dreaming of you every night, the thoughts of you invade my heart, mind, and soul. I lay in the bed wishing with all my heart that i was with you, with my arms around you holding you close and whispering into your ear.
I swear iv loved you
Ill swear to always love you
No matter what the cost
Would you love me to?
My heart now tells me to leave, leave everything here and to go to you, its trying to find somewhere it belongs. But for now... tonight ill look at the stars and think of the night we first met. All this pain that your not here, i hope to cast it away with that magical memory under the stars.

oh, and btw, subway is DELICIOUS!
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ok, for starters

Ok, so this is my first blog, and honestly im not expecting a high turn out lol, but thats cool. I made this because someone suggested i do is and so i was like, sure, whatever, ill make one.. but OMG it took forever to land on a decent name that i liked lol. Anyway this is prolly gonna be mainly for songs, so since this is the FIRST post, imma put up the first song i ever wrote.

As i stare into your eyes i drown in their endless depths, i can feel my heart being pulled into those wonderful eyes. If i told you that you were beautiful, would you smile at me? with your perfect smile that makes my day brighter. would you sneak out in the middle of the night to be with me, to sit with me, to let me hold you... under the stars with you in my arms, could this night be any more perfect? If i told you that my heart skiped when i heard your name, would you believe me? If i told you that my heart was in your hands tonight, would you cherish it, hold it, and protect it? if i told you that you complete me, that you make me see clearly, would you trust me? i love everything i know about you, and i yearn to know more, and i want to show you what all i see in you. This feeling, i cant shake it, make it go away, this vampyric addiction, leaving me alone in full submission when im with out you. Every moment when im with out you, every breath i take when your not with me leaves me weak and lost. If i were to tell you that i loved you, would you, could you... i know we arent the same, and i know we're unprepared, and i know it will be hard, the road rough and angry, but even with all this staring us in the face, if i told you that i loved you, would you love me?
hope you enjoyed it:)